Saucy Faucet

I had such a craptastic day today-I was just in a sour
mood. My quads are killing me from working out and
although I am aware of the pain, I sort of like it-I
feel pride in working so hard-unfortunately I weighed
in +1 at the scale today which just felt like such a
blow. It's stupid, I know to get upset about half a
kilo... which could very well be a good poop-knowing
me, just an average poop... but still you can tell
your mind anything you want-but somehow the heart just
doesn't want to listen.

I keep telling myself fall down nine times, get up
ten... c'mon wens... but I am frustrated. I do think
I look *way* better than before but I am just ready to
get this monkey off my back. which is a lie because
after I am done I will have to maintain the weight...


enough of that.

Did you see the Olympic pairs skaters from China who
won the silver? The woman, Zhang Dan fell so badly on
the first throw that her knees were visibly bruising
as she came off the ice--but she went back and skated
albeit wobbly and finished the program and won a
silver medal! I was so moved I cried. I am letting
this be my inspiration to not be defeated in the short
term but to keep going- knowing that each week I am
taking a step towards something better--because all we
need is persistance not perfection.