Saucy Faucet

It's twenty eight days til my birthday and I promised myself back in March that by the time I turned 31 i would weigh under 200 pounds.

I am at 203.

I am almost there!

It's such a mental game. Sometimes I feel like I have done so well that it's a sure thing that I will make my weight goal. I definitely feel better than I did 64 pounds heavier. Sometimes (like tonight shopping at Wal-Mart for Mom who was baking...) I walk down the baking isle and just want to eat everything! There are just so many yummy ways to get fat. Cake, cookies, cheeses and the tons and tons of manufactured crap for sale that is supposed to be food... Like candies and desserts. When you use something as a crutch it takes a long time to make new habits and retrain your brain.
I definitely don't feel like backsliding- but I need to be careful. I'm getting a little too relaxed--letting a lick of icing slide--portions getting bigger. I haven't joined a gym here because that would be admitting that I want to stay here-but I think I need to do it. It will help me keep focused. I am excited to get a cool picture taken when I get to One-derland. 199 feels like the end of the world for some women, but for me it will be an exciting new start!